Well What The Heck Happened Today????? Gosh I don't understand my child sometimes......Nicole tottally has decided to move out!!!!!!@#$!%@%^&*&((*&%^$#@@ I guess that's a good thing she is nineteen, but am I ready for this?? Is she ready for this?? who knows??? Does she know??? She is moveing out because she says "WE" are hard to live with??? Is she for real?? well she packed up and left, I guess she is..... I am just dumd founded???.....Well I guess I just have to rely on the parenting we have given her and trust she will use her good judgement and make safe and wise decisions. You know probably I should not blog about this right now because I am really emotional about all of this. She just doesn't even have a plan or a place to go right now. She is probably going to move in with Hastings and wow will that be the beginning of th end??? He is a good boy with a good family, but she is really emotional right now and they are teenagers who are in love and have been dating for a year!!! All we wanted was respect from her in our house. She is aloud to come and go as she pleases, she isn't asked to clean or do laundry, but in turn we should feel like having a conversation is not going to cause an arguement, bu it does,,,everytime. It's almost as if she has no respect at all for Johnny, and yes he has made mistakes, but all that is over and she just can't let it go. So I guess she has ventured off into the world to start her life. I guess that's a good thing.....will she go to school next semester?? Will she have a forwarding address?? Will she want to come back??? Do we keep her room vacant??? Am I feeling the right way??? I am secretly kinda angry,, How will I keep from missing her soooo badly.... Am I being selfish>>??? What is wrong with me?? I really feel like a failure.....first Johnny and now Nicole??? Great I guess Christy has finally won. I raised her kids for ten years, now they are old enough to make their own choices and they both choose not to be with me........what is going to happen now, should I have insisted that she stay at home, should we have told her NO??? She was very adimit about leaving, and now she is gone....I asked her where she was going and she said "that's not for you to worry about." Should I not be worried about it??? Should I just leave it as " you will always have a place here" Cause we got two hugs and "you can reach me on my cell" and she was gone....................................................................................now what?

well It was the first day of physical therapy.....ya it sucked!! I was pretty impressed how different this surgery was from the total ACL replacement!! Shoot I'll have this beat in a couple of weeks probably. I was already able to bend my knee 120degrees and the therapist said that was ALOT for three days post op! So I am hopefull. Johnny and I agrued almost the whole way to therapy:( I guess the stress of him not working and nothing in my house is getting done quite the way I think it should be done, and he is trying, so I probably need to just lighten up a little bit. Plus I have been trying to ween myself off the pain medicine and that probably isn't helpig matters much as far as being irritable goes. It's just frustrating I guess. I really just need to CHILL OUT!! I'm working on it.....I swear I am. That's why I decided to play some totally eighties music and BLOG!!! I am really starting to love blogging. I just hope that when I'm not lying flat on my back I will be committed to it also. Shagggy is soo awesome!! I just want to get up and DANCE!!!Ok so that was pretty random...sorry. Anywho i guess our besties Jeff and Becky are coming over tonight,yay!! It definetly makes the time down in bed or on the couch go by faster when there is good company to spend it with!! Thank goodness for good friends!! Man Monday at the bbq having everyone over sure was lots of fun. It makes you very grateful to have friends and be thankful they love you soooo much. that's it for now.

I'm gonna be a better blogger......

man I am a horrible blogger...oh well that's ok, well lets see an update from January???? The semester went ok until right at the very end. Johnny was in a motorcycle accident and Jenni broke her wrist. I guess I probably could have and should have pulled it off, but it just seemed kinda unimportant. So I ended up dropping two classes. but on the lighter side of things, I did apply to the Radiological technician program and I made it in!!There were 36 applicants and they accepted 10!!! My best friend Becky made it in also!!! Yeah I missed going to school with her. Now for the next 20 months it will be buckling down and hitting the books hard!! I'm kinda excited though, this last semester was like "well maybe I'll skip class today, and maybe tommorrow, and the next day, I really don't need these classes!!" But no more of that!!! I have a future...Finally. I had my knee surgery yesterday....kind of a little confused about it. So my ACL was completely shot, but he didn't replace it because I wouldn't be ready for school by August 13th??? Yea I don't get it either...but I guess it will be fine. I really hate having bad knees. Well I guess that's why he's the doctor. I go back for a folllow up appt on june 2nd, we will see what he says. Ikick myself in the butt everytime I have any kind of knee issue cause it should of been all been AVOIDED!!! Oh well I am a firm believer of eerything happens for a reason. I'll let you know when I figure out the reaason for all that!!!LOL So Iguess it's just all about getting things together to start the rad tech program!!! I am pretty stoked about this new page of my life!!1 I'll keep ya posted!!!


Memorial Day was great!!!! After closing on our house Febuary 2oth, it seemed fitting to have a memorial day bbq to break it in!! We had lots of fun, friends, and food!!!! Johnny bar-b-qued for a couple of hours!!! The "white" and "black" Hamblins came over...LOL and Ben and Linda came out!!!! It was tons of fun!! We missed Manda and David, and Bonnie and Breanna but they decided to get out of Sullivan for the holiday!! totally understandable, we just missedyou guys! Becky and Mary kept the kitchen clean, and John fixed the dryer vent and loaned us a de-humidifier for the basement!!!! What great friends we have!!! We are so blessed!!! Noah and Trevor tested out the support beanms in the basement...with thier heads!!! and poor Tyson got kicked in the neck, and Maci fell off the stairs, and Emmi got two splinters. ...LOL I know maybe thats not funny, but if you know these kids went they all get together,nobody got a concussion, or had to go the ER so it was a success!! But seriously, a good time was had by all, and I loved being surrounded by friends the day before my knee surgery. We finished off the evening with a blessing from Johnny and Jeff and off to bed we went!!