Well What The Heck Happened Today????? Gosh I don't understand my child sometimes......Nicole tottally has decided to move out!!!!!!@#$!%@%^&*&((*&%^$#@@ I guess that's a good thing she is nineteen, but am I ready for this?? Is she ready for this?? who knows??? Does she know??? She is moveing out because she says "WE" are hard to live with??? Is she for real?? well she packed up and left, I guess she is..... I am just dumd founded???.....Well I guess I just have to rely on the parenting we have given her and trust she will use her good judgement and make safe and wise decisions. You know probably I should not blog about this right now because I am really emotional about all of this. She just doesn't even have a plan or a place to go right now. She is probably going to move in with Hastings and wow will that be the beginning of th end??? He is a good boy with a good family, but she is really emotional right now and they are teenagers who are in love and have been dating for a year!!! All we wanted was respect from her in our house. She is aloud to come and go as she pleases, she isn't asked to clean or do laundry, but in turn we should feel like having a conversation is not going to cause an arguement, bu it does,,,everytime. It's almost as if she has no respect at all for Johnny, and yes he has made mistakes, but all that is over and she just can't let it go. So I guess she has ventured off into the world to start her life. I guess that's a good thing.....will she go to school next semester?? Will she have a forwarding address?? Will she want to come back??? Do we keep her room vacant??? Am I feeling the right way??? I am secretly kinda angry,, How will I keep from missing her soooo badly.... Am I being selfish>>??? What is wrong with me?? I really feel like a failure.....first Johnny and now Nicole??? Great I guess Christy has finally won. I raised her kids for ten years, now they are old enough to make their own choices and they both choose not to be with me........what is going to happen now, should I have insisted that she stay at home, should we have told her NO??? She was very adimit about leaving, and now she is gone....I asked her where she was going and she said "that's not for you to worry about." Should I not be worried about it??? Should I just leave it as " you will always have a place here" Cause we got two hugs and "you can reach me on my cell" and she was gone....................................................................................now what?